March 8: That Feeling

:'c

March 7

Staring at you paints a smile in my face. You may not know it but I always long for your presence. I may not show it but my heart and mind shouts your name. Much as I want to tell the whole world who you really are, like how I did with my past loves, I am not ready yet.

There is still this fear within me.

There is still this hesitation present in me.

There is still insecurity.

I hope it gets easy to tell you how I really like you. We may talk of different things in different timeframes, still I can't talk of this feeling I have for you.

It sucks, you know. :-/

February 29

I know you can't be mine, but yeah, I really don't know really where this is going. Somewhere in my heart, there's this slightest tinge of hope that you will have a change of heart. Distant it may seem, but I still feel that everything between the two of us is within reach.

You're special. You're really very special. If you only knew how much I like you, how much I want to be closer to you, how much I want to spend more time with you, I'd be more than willing to give things like these a chance. I really do not know how this all began. I just woke up realizing that I met a special person years ago. Funny how someone like you surprisingly occupied a slot there, there in that place where no one ever places with ease.

It's your smile. Yes your smile. I always think of your smile. And yes, your scent, your beautiful hair, your beautiful face. For now, I really do not know how I am going to beat around the bush. Confused, I am. I think this is impossible, but I'll be giving this some chance, anyway.

I hope you'd know how much I want you to be around me so you could stay with me, or leave me so I'd wake from this dream. I've been dreaming about you and it hurts knowing that you're beside me yet you're still far away. :c And yes, my heart's a mess. I think it's evident in my inconsistent and non-well-transitioned points.

Pick apart
The pieces of your heart
And let me peer inside
Let me in
Where only your thoughts have been
Let me occupy your mind
As you do mine