Yes, I ain't bitter.

No, I won't chase you.

No, I won't shed a single tear for you.

No, I won't ask my friends to help me get you back again.

No, I won't waste my nights thinking about what happened to us.

I would have to thank you, actually. You made the transition easier for me. You made it seem like you were never an important person to me. You, of all, are supposed to be the person to least likely abandon me, but you were the contrary. Seems like dumping me is a very easy thing for you to do. Seems like you really don't care of me. Seems like I was never that a very good friend to you. It appears to me as if I was just a passerby. It appears to me as if I was just a plain acquaintance. But no, I ain't bitter.

Thank you. You never made it hard for me to forget you. You never gave me the hard time bringing back what was lost between the two of us because I realized I no longer need it. You, in fact, gave me the motivation to veer away from you. You're quite brilliant in making me detach from you. You seem good at making things work for you, but at the same time making it easier for the other party to forget you. You're quite good at that! I salute you.

Good job! Now, we're both free.

-Cris Virgil Pescadero-

My Sites

Hey guys. Here's a list of the sites I am visiting while I go online.

Facebook - http://www.facebook.com

Friendster - http://www.friendster.com

Blogger - http://www.blogger.com

Starmometer - http://www.starmometer.com/

Philippine Entertainment Portal - http://www.pep.ph/index.html

CNN - http://edition.cnn.com/

Listverse - http://listverse.com/

The Oatmeal - http://theoatmeal.com/

Cracked - http://www.cracked.com/

Demonoid - http://www.demonoid.com/

The Billboard - http://www.billboard.com/

UP Batibot - http://www.upbatibot.com/

what's yours?

-Cris Virgil Pescadero-

i can't blog right now

i can't blog right now.

i can't think of a good topic to talk about.

i can't think of a theme to use.

i can't think.....

you see, i can't think because an effin' friend is mad at me and i don't know why.

i can't think of a topic because i kept on asking myself what the heck went wrong, or what did i do wrong?

i can't blog because as i try to open up a topic i become confused and go back to the mind that i don't want to have, ya know, this mind who kept on asking what i've done wrong.

i can't blog because what's in my mind as of this moment is the very memory last night when he snobbed me and shooed me away like i don't exist.

i can't blog because he is not replying to my messages, because he does not tell me what the effing problem is, and because he is such a bitch.

i can't blog because i am worried i might lose another friend again.

i can't lose a very good friend, no, not this time.

*ps. guess this is a blog after all.

-Cris Virgil Pescadero-

He and She

This time I’ll be cheesy. I’ll be eewwy. I’ll be mushy. I’ll be the not-so-me. This time I’ll be blogging about life.

Just last night, she messaged me that she is going to McDonald’s. I just came from a cheer dance practice. I was tired. I was a bit wet of the rain. I was hungry. Enough of my little misery, she asked me whether I have eaten already, asked me what I was doing. Not thinking twice, I packed myself up and went to McDo, where her sister treated her to a coke float and some burger and fries, where I supposedly and intently went to just to save her from boredom. And, oh, well, she is my LIKE-life.

So I arrived at McDo, thinking of burger Mac and apple pie as the answer to my grumbling and crumbling and not-so-patient stomach. Surprisingly and unfortunately and sadly, I met her as I went inside. I met her as she and her not-so-look-alike sister as they went out and go home. We even barely said “hi” or at least a word. I sensed that she was tired, and I sensed her not-in-the-mood-to-talk aura. I said goodbye, smiled a little, never expected a smile back, went inside and ordered the meal that I was thinking since I was in the jeepney. I looked back, and she was no longer there, I mean, they were no longer there. What my thoughts were during that time, I cannot really tell. This blog won’t suffice for it.

I sent him a text message. I told him that I was in McDo, eating alone. I asked him to treat me to a meal, yet he said that he cannot come because he went home. I told him that he still owes me a “libre” for his birthday. He told me that he did not celebrate his date of birth because he was busy for an exam. I felt sad for him, knowing that he is supposed to celebrate his birthday on the 18^th of August yet no one bothered to celebrate it because of a busy schedule. I was supposed to suggest that I and his girlfriend come over to his house and cook for him and, at least, although late, celebrate his birthday, yet I mentioned not any of these because I feared he would take this as an intervention of his private life. And oh, he is my then best friend, my friend whom I miss talking to and I miss playing DotA with.

I asked him on the number of his customers every day. He said that it is just enough to cover the daily needs of his family. I asked for more. He is the balut vendor. Rarely do I like the vinegar for balut here in the city and for me his vinegar for balut is the best so far in Cebu City.

I called him. I have arrived at the dormitory around 1am. I was supposed to meet him today and then we play DotA and Counter Strike, but I was not able to see him for the day because of his engagement with his organization, and because I have been busy not only for today but for the past days as well. I gave him a call, talked to him for quite a long time. I message him of my whereabouts, and he gives me a signal to call him whenever he needs help. He is my closest friend. I do not know where he actually is right now. LOL

He stared at me, as if I was a snatcher or a kidnapper or something of that sort. He dressed good; he dressed like a call center agent. There were only the two of us. He kept his bag closer to him as soon as I get to the jeepney we shared. He was my gay co-passenger. It made me wonder whether I really looked badly, or the other way around, because I really was not able to determine what his stares meant.

He recalled his acquaintances and his contacts for the day. He recalled of his like-life, of his then best friend, the balut vendor, of his closest friend, of his co-passenger. He realized a slight fraction of a second lost is a memory lost. He recalled all the times that he should have spent with the necessary things, aside from ranting on a tiny thing such as being tired or being wet of the rain or being hungry. Most of these things can be easily addressed. Make things simple. He always believed on not complicating things, that things will always have its common denominator. And yes, he is me.

-Cris Virgil Pescadero-

A Short Story. Literally.

Part 1.

The Beginning.

Acquaintance.
Conversations.
Ask for the number.
Messages thru texts.
Meet-ups.
Hang-outs.
Dates.
Meals together.
Sweet.
Walks home.
Courts.
Answers yes.
Meets the gang.
Formally announces.
Happiness.
Drinks for Life.
Small Misunderstanding.
Big Quarrels.
ENDS RELATIONSHIP.

The End.


Part 2.

Asks Forgiveness.
Talks.
Understands.
Forgives and Forgets.
Loves again.
Goes to the girl's house.
SEX.
Pregnant.
Cries.
Problems.
Announces.
Suicide.
Dies.

In the end, that's Rest, like forever.

Have a nice day fellas.
(Photo Credit for Journey Joyce Yamyamin. I Edited this pic as a Birthday present for her. XD XD XD)

-Cris Virgil Pescadero-

The Man's Rules

I got this from an online buddy. Hope you find this interesting, cos i really find it interesting. :)) oh, really, very interesting.

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At last a guy has taken the time to write this all down. Finally, the guys side of the story.(I must admit, it's pretty good.)

We always hear "the rules" from the female side. Now here are the rules from the male’s point of view. These are our rules! Please note… these are all numbered "1."ON PURPOSE!

1. Men are NOT mind readers and never will be. Our lack of mind-reading ability, however, is not proof of how little we care about you.

1. Learn to work the toilet seat.

You're a big girl. If it's up, put it down.

We need it up, you need it down.

You don't hear us complaining about you leaving it down.

1. Sunday sports: It's like the full moon or the changing of the tides. Let it be.

1. Crying is blackmail.

1. Ask for what you want.

Let us be clear on this one: Subtle hints do not work! Strong hints do not work! Obvious hints do not work! Just say it! (for cryin’ out loud)

1. Yes and No are perfectly acceptable answers to almost every question.

1. Come to us with a problem only if you want help solving it. That's what we do.

Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for.

1. Anything we said 6 months ago is inadmissible in an argument.

In fact, all comments become Null and Void after 7 Days.

1. If you think you're fat, you probably are. Don't ask us.

1. If you won't dress like the Victoria's Secret girls, don't expect us to act like soap opera guys.

1. If something we said can be interpreted two ways and one of the ways makes you sad or angry, we meant the other one.

1. You can either ask us to do something, or tell us how you want it done. Not both. If you already know best how to do it, just do it yourself.

1. Whenever possible, please say whatever you have to say during commercials...

1. Sometimes, we are not thinking about you. Live with it.

1. Christopher Columbus did NOT need directions and neither do we.

1. ALL men see in only 16 colors, like Windows default settings.

Peach, for example, is a fruit, NOT a color. Pumpkin is also a fruit. We have no idea what mauve is.

1. If it itches, it will be scratched. We do that.

1. If we ask what is wrong and you say "nothing," we will act like nothing's wrong.

We know you are lying, but it is just not worth the hassle.

1. If you ask a question you don't want an answer to, expect an answer you don't want to hear.

1. When we have to go somewhere, absolutely anything you wear is fine... Really.

1. Don't ask us what we're thinking about unless you are prepared to discuss such topics as baseball or golf or basketball or cool gadgets.

1. We don't remember dates. Mark birthdays and anniversaries on a calendar. Remind us frequently beforehand.

1. Shopping is NOT a sport, and no, we are never going to think of it that way.

1. You have enough clothes.

1. You have too many shoes.

1. I am in shape. Round IS a shape!

…and lastly

1. Thank you for reading this. Yes, I know, I have to sleep on the couch tonight.

-Cris Virgil Pescadero-

What's in my Inbox?

Hey. I was thinking of a sensible topic to talk about, yet I really can't decide on something really sensible this time. Instead, I want to share with you a slight private part of me--my inbox. LOL So here it is.

from Andres Soguilon

- Nana mi royal.

from Carol Cabello

- hi everyone! see ya here at d AS lobby for d bloodletting activity. thanks so much. we r counting on u :)

from Wynonah

- Good morning universe. :)

from Euvic Ferrer

- 7% daw final interest. Available na daw ang money ugma or even laer if makadecide na ta.

from Nikki Geverola

- 7% interest daw ilang final. dayon iplug ang photobooth kadaghan sa event.

from Ms. Cris BL

- gud pm cris, and mga C4CC activities sa UP kay mga sept pa na maplanohan. k2 mtg with coaches 4 debates kay mga next wk na. thanks.

from Wynonah.

- Ana. hehe. Good morning. Paeta oy. Gi-sipon ko. Weird ayu kog voice. Breakfast ta na. Sayuha gd nimu mata? Late man kaha mo gabie? Anyway, see you at school.

from Ella Sarmago

- "every second, someone needs blood." donate to become a hero to someone's life. Blood odnation drive. AS Lobby 9-4pm, today.

from Nikko NAtuplag

- tulog na telai, nagbrush pa si steph. hahaha

from Bap Palen

- Luoda. ge na. sleep na ko. hehe. pagsugod na mo oi.

from Nikko Natuplag

- wahaha. gitulog na ka kuya noh? lol joke. geh good night na gyud. :-D

from Bap Palen

- dili to overs oi. nagchula sila on Cam? ala ko kibaw. Yuck gyud.

from Bap Palen

- TAMA! hahahaha

from Bap Palen

- Nganu gud tawn. convince me asa ko ato na categories ni fall? hahahaha

from Bap Palen

- if you see a good looking guy na magaling pumorma, conscious at maarte sa katawan, METROSEXUAL yan. Isang metro na lng, Bakla na. haha. Bantay2 lang

from Nikko Natuplag

- hala. haha, friendship gyud diay mu ni czar kuya noh? nocturnal pud ka?

from Bap Palen

- hoi wag kasing masyadong guilty kung ano man ang ikinakaguilty nyo. haha

from Bap Palen

- huh? Nganu ka?

from Wynonah

- Asesss. Haha cge na oi I have to sleep na. Gudnyt emo boy. See you tomorrow. :)

from Wynonah

- text2 sa imong mata. naa koi long test ugma. pol sci pa jd my ged! ikaw sd, taaaas ayu ang adlaw karon ra sd ka kahuna2 ug text nako. Abnormal ay. hahaha

from Wynonah

- Hapit na emo boy. So, kelangan jd diay mag-overnight for an exa

m? Hmm.. Haha. Gudnyt na pd emo-boy-na-to-the-highest-levelling-ang-dance-moves. veyga ra. :)

from Carmina Racaza

- hi Sayawe! Please look for people na mabaligyaan nato sa ato Cookout tickets for Sayawe. Thank you.

from Jigjig Paler

- cge uban lang..

from Bap Palen

- OMG! 1 mistake ra akung 1st long test sa Managerial Accounting! So inspired. Hahahaha

from Carol Cabello

- wen ur single, all u see r hapi couples.. but wen ur committed, all u see r hapi singles. B)

from frend

- frnd? Buhay ka na? pasenxa kagabi di q nadala ung fon q. hehehe

from melody rosales

- erotomania is a psychological disorder that makes a person assume that the one they love s also in love with them.in short, feeler.

from melody rosales

- never be serious on someone who's not interested on u. it's just like ur trying very hard to get a perfect score on a quiz which is not recorded.

from Edward Limosnero

- Ang love, parang bubblegum lang yan na kahit anong klaseng nguya ang gawin mo, darating at darating pa rin sa puntong mawawalan ito ng tamis, nasa iyo na lang kung palolobohin mo ito upang paglaruan, idikit upang iwan na lan, o lunukin upang maging bahagi ng iyong sistema.

from Winona Baguio

- heroes cry too. but they don't quit on themselves. ever.

from April Ohendras

- MamaL nak, nganung nagkabulingit man ka? Anak: kabantay ka anang kanal dira ma? Mama: Oo nak, kabantay ko. Nganu man? Anak: ako wala.

from April Ohendras

- Kanino ka ba dapat humanga? Sa taong iniwan ang iba para mahalin ka? o sa taong handang iwan ka dahil may mahal kang iba?

from May dela Cruz

- avoid criticizing the person you see in front of you, coz you might also be an irritation with the millions of eyes behnd you.

from Winona Baguio

- Truth is, everybody's going to hurt you. You just gotta find the ones worth suffering for. -Bob Marley.

from May dela Cruz

- One day, you'll be surprised to see yourself smiling at the thought of caring for someone so much who used to be just an ordinary person.

from unknown

- i can heal almost every body part, except this broken heart. - wolverine

from Edward Limosnero

- you can;t force yourself to forget someting because the only reason why we forget is when a better memory has taken its place.

So there it is. Actually, there are still lotsa quotations in my inbox, and I'm already tired.

Now I'm off to my studies. Oral exam tomorrow. Wish me luck.

-Cris Virgil Pescadero-